it sure has been a while since I posted something on here. been busy though. holidays, parenting, doing my best not to irritate those around me ;-) How was everyones Thanksgiving? we had a good one. the turkey was moist and the rest of the food was good too. it was a good meal. that evening I found myself in the emergancy room with a sick littel boy though. turns out he had the flu. thats the things about autism. when he is sick sometimes it is hard to tell because he doesnt talk and he doesnt act like he is sick. it is somewhat unerving I must say. He is doing better now. His mother had it too. and she is gettign better as well. now gues what? its my turn :-( oh well these things happen in life. does no good to mope and complain about them, now does it? but things are going along just fine and am looking forward to christmas :-) love Christmas. and it is even better with my son here ( of course that does mean I have to share now though ;-) ) but it is great because he gets the toys I used to like to get and I can still recapture a bit of my youth playing with them as well; after all he needs someone to play with all those cool toys with him ;-) well I have a bunch of things I have to do today while he is in school so I must keep this short. hope everyone is doing well and please try not to let the holidays stress you out. see ya

Hello all and hows was everyones halloween? I had a good one. my little boy was dressed up as Eyore from winine the pooh. we took him to a few safe houses and he had a great time. it didnt take him long to figure out if he held up his basket someone would put candy in it. The only real sad tihng about halloween is that you have to be so careful what houses you take your child to to trick or treat. I know it is only a small number of deranged individuals who enjoy harming children that have caused this but the bottem line is trick or treating is not the same as when most of us were younger.That was a time when you could get enough candy in one night to send a dentist's child through collage. I hope the day will come when our kids will be safer to go out and trick or trreat or play in the park or just be kids without some deranged cowerdly person trying to cuse them harm. Like I said before it is only a small number of people who do this but even that number is too many. People lets let children be children. life is complicated enough when they become adults no need to complicate thier childhood too. have a good day all.

and again I have waited quite awhile between post, but this time I actually have a reason. its not worth mentioning but it is a valid one. I have something I saw the other day that got me a nit upset. I was walking through town ( thats what those of us do when your car needs almost 2000 dollars in repairs ;-) ) and up ahead I saw this car stuck at the light. inside was a obviously upset and frustrated lady with her head on the stearing wheel. and as I got closer I saw many cars honk and then just drive around her. when I got to her car door I saw shw was nicley dressed in a business skirt, top and heels so there was no way she was goignt o move the car herself. she seemd suprizes I was goign to push her car out of the intersection for her. after getting it safely to the side of the road she proceeded to tell me that several men offered to push her for sexual favors in return. now this upsets me. have we as a society gotten so bad we expect huge returns for doing what should be dome to help someone in need? and where have all the gentlemen gone? are we so few and far between as to be pratically non-exitant? I have to believe there are more good people in the world then bad. I just think the bad are more visible and seem to cluster together in numbers where the think easy pickings are to be found ( of course so do buzzards) come one people help out your fellow man ( or women) if for no ther reason then someday you may need some help too. and guys cmon now. woudl being a gentleman even occasionally be too much to do ? it would take just a little effort on all of our parts to accept, and help each other to make the world a better place. ok havign said that I can put my soapbox away for another day and go read my new magazine that I havent had the time to do. have a good one :-)

hello all . well it has been a awhile since I posted here, and why is that? you might ask. well I could give you some long drawn out explanation siting the planetary alignments and such like that and come up with a bunch of excuses, but the truth of the matter is . I don't know. the great thing is I dont have to have a reason :-) it's my blog :-) not too much new going on in my life. My little boy is back in school so I get a little break during the day to do things. It is nice to see the weather is cooling off and soon the leaves will change colors and start to fall. Ah Fall one of the most beautifull times of the years. A great time for long walks and site seeing. You know usually I get on here and have something to say and today was no different but as I started thinking about the near perfect temperature for walking and the turning of the leaves my mind started drifting and I forgot what it was I was going to say :-) Ah but to be distracted with such pleasnt thoughts though. You know what? I think I will save that thought for another day and head out for a walk by the river. Hope your all having a great day :-)

well her it is THE day. it has been one year since th attack and I have heard much about it today most of it sad. Here's the way I see it. The act of terrorism is designed to do what ;anyone; anyone ( feris bueller flashback ) it is designed to cause terror, pain, sadness, and man other negative emotions. If we continue to feel this way then the act of terrorism is still having the desired effect it did the day it happened. I think instead we should not look at the negative aspect of it but the positive. The strength of the survivors, how all people came together to help, how it has made us stronger as a nation. Don't let the cowerds who did this continue to have that hold over us. Let them realize that even amonst tragedy we are a strong proud nation and wont let our hard earned way of life be so easily crushed. Just the way I prefer to look at it. have a good day all and be proud to be an American.

I heard a joke the other day and I would like ot share it with you. First off let me say this is not a racist joke in the least. I don't like raciam ( can't even spell it thats how much I don't like it :-) ) I can't see how someone can look at someone else who doesn't look like them and automatically think there is something wrong with them; so if you hear this joke and get offended you are wound way too tight. Life is not that serious. I like this joke because it shows how people look at the same things from a different point of view. Theres this old black man sitting talking to this old white man. the black man says " when I was born... I was black. When I grew up... I was black. When I go out in the sun.... I am black. When I am sick...I am black, and when I die...I am black. When you are born... you are pink. When you grew up... you are white. When you go out in the sun... you are tan. When you are sick... you are green and when you die... you are grey. So who are you calling me colored?"

We have all heard the saying lifes a beach. Lets think about that for a minute. Picture life as a beach. What part of the beach are you? Are you the rocks standing steadfast against the pounding waves refusing to give in, to budge? Yes though you may be mighty to stand firm against the strength of the sea do you really come out on top? No; for as each wave hits it slowly eats away at you and while the world may look at you and admire your steadfastness the constant poundings of the waves are slowly eroding you away until there is nothing left. Better, I think, to be the sand. While the waves may wash over you and take some of you away; by giving up some things the waves also bring more in return, and even though other beach goers may leave marks upon your surface the tide of a new day washes all the marks away and you are fresh and new all over again.

In the store the other day I saw an unruly child acing up and gettign into everything. The mother looking quite strssed out turned to her husband and said," do sometihng with YOUR son" Later in the checkout line the cashier mention she had a cute child and the women responded that her son was such a good child. Now I have noticed this many many times with parents and I have to wonder what makes us assign ownership of a child based on thier behavior? Do parents do this because the childs behavior reminds them of personality traits in the other person? Perhaps it reminds them of personality traits in themselves; or at least trait they think they have. Mabey they just like to think they are the best parent in the two so naturally when the child is behaving well they must get it from them. I really dont know why they do that. All I know is MY son is being so cute right now I have to get off and play with him. Such a good boy. He's just like his daddy ;-) Have a good day all.

you know I was just sitting here watching cartoons with my soon when I realized something.... I was actually enjoying the cartoons as well as he was! Now what does it say when a grown man watches and enjoys cartoons as well as his young child does? I have heard many comments on it ( most of which were unkind) but you know what I think? ( of course you dotn thats why I goign to tell you :-) ) I think its just fine. Entertainment is entertainment and we all have different things that amuse us. with that in mind I will continue to watch and enjoysome of the same cartoons as my son does ( Spongebob square pants, Ed Edd and Eddy, and Dexters LAb are some of my favorites) so does that make me any less of a man? should I be ashamed I find them entertaining, does it make anyone reading this think less of me? Well, you know. I really don't care. I am me. love me or hate me it doesnt change who I am. Have a good day I'm
going to watch cartoons with my son .

What is it about breadcrust? Yes I know that is a strange way to start an entry, but I had just got through fixing my son a sandwhich and I forgot to take the crust off and he looked at it like I was trying to poison him. I took the crust off and he was happily munching away. What is it about the crust? when I was young I did the same thing and I have seen many many kids who all behaved the same way towards breadcrust. Do they know something we don't ? Is some alien force hiding nanobots in the crust designed to be eaten by us for information gathering for a future world conquest? Are the children born with some ability to detect this and it just lessens as they get older? Will they ever make white bread that has some kind of flavor to it? We may never learn the answers to these question; so untill the day comes when my son will eat the crust I will continue to remove it and look to the skies and wonder....

Hello all. how are you tonight? well it is night as I write this. I heard something the other day and I had to write about it. I was sitting in the grass playing with my son and some rocks we were using for cars when I overheard a couple nearby expressing disapproval with my actions; saying what is he just a big child and why doesnt he act his age and stop playing in the grass. Act my age. Now exactly how is one my age suppose to act? Am I supposed to be like those two and ignore my child by not playing with him looking down my nose at everyone else? An I suppose to wear a suit to spend a liesurly day in the park? I don't think so. I think because I am secure enough with who I am and my own maturity I can play in the dirt and rocks with my son; giving him the one on one attention all children need and still stand up straight and conduct myself as an adult when the situation calls. This I think is true maturity; knowing how to be an adult while still realizing there is a child in all of us who just wants to go out and play in the dirt :-) have a good evening all and dont neglect your inner child.

What makes a family? You know I have been thinking about it lately. Seems like it the hot topic on talk shows and such. Does blood relations make a family? Well not really I have seen many blood families that are very mean and hatefull to one another. DOes it have to be the typical man ,woman, child, pet type of thing? I dont think so either. I have seen many "alternative" family types that worked quite well. So what makes a good family? Well here is what I think Love, Trust, Honesty, Respect, and knowing that they will always be there if you need them. That is just what I think are some of the main ingrediants to a good family. Hope yur days are going well and I will talk to you all later.

My son was sitting in my lap this morning sleepiness in his eyes watching Telletubbies and I was telling him that I love him which I do often because I feel all children accomplish more and are happier when they know they are loved by thier parents. I started to wonder how often is really often enough to tell the ones we loved how we feel. Is there a certian number of times...like say10 or so? can you say it too much? I dont know if there is a certian number of times it should be said. If there is some research that gives a actual number of times it should be said for best results. All I know is I tell my son often dispite his autism and hearing problems he smile each and everytime I say it and I know he knows he is loved :-)

I was just sitting here thinking about reading an article awhile back. It was about this man who one day decided he wanted to take a motorcycle trip around the world and the vehicle he chose to do it on was a Hnda 250 Elite scooter. He has since completed his trip and written a book about it. I will one day get the book and read it as soon as I can remember what the name of it was. I remember I first heard about it when I had had my 250 Elite scooter and I started thinking well why can't I do that. I figured I could at least start off with a trip across the country. I sat down and came up with plans on what to take, how to take it, and my Road atlas became my favorite reading item. I had it all planned out and did I take that trip? Well actually no I didnt. I kept coming up with excuses and reason as to why I had to wait. Then the day came when I sold my scooter, a dark day indeed. Why do I bring this up you ask? Because I got to thinking that had I taken that trip it would have made some major change in my life and I started looking back over my life and I came across a few decisions that had they been made differently would have drastically alterd my life the way it is today. I don't know if it would have been for the better or worse but it would have sent it off in a different direction than it took. Not that my life now is bad. I have a wonderfull son, my health is good, I can still dream the grand dreams, when I play with my son I can still remember what it was like being a child myself, I have wonderful parents and siblings who love me as much as I love them. I just have to wonder what if... It is those what ifs that drive us to try new things, to see what is just over the next hill, to dream and reach for the dreams. I had always planned on taking that trip someday but now I noticed that Honda has the new Silverwing scooter. 600cc fuek injected twin, disk brakes, more room for my knees ( a small complaint about my 250 Elite) slightly larger tires and better suspension travel (escuse me while I take a moment to ponder the possibilities) Now that old dream is stronger then ever. I think I might just have to find a way to afford one of those Silverwings. I havent ridden in quite a while and I feel the need for a road trip ( of course for me the word road tends to mean any surface that is drivable.) so next time you find yourself wondering a big "what if" you just might give some more serious thought to seeing where it takes you. Your life might never be the same. Have a good day everyone.

You know I was over at the river park the other day just enjoying the day when I noticed some nice motorcycles in the parking lot. Now I love motorcycles the feeling you get when your out riding on one is wonderful. One of the riders had a Suzuki Katana 600, it was in very good shape. The rider however was complaining about it. He said he wanted to do a little touring but his bike was too small for it. He wanted a 1000 cc sportbike to tour on. Now here this guy had a nice bike but wasnt happy with it. all he could see was its percieved faults. It reminded me of a motorcycle ride I was on a while back. I was out just enjoying a day of riding on my 86 Honda 250 Elite scooter ( yes I said 250cc and Scooter) I had a big box on back for storage and had gone a little over 200 miles that day. I stopped for a while to rest and have a cold drink. when this guy rode in on a little 180 Yamaha scooter. He had a windshield on it as well as some soft saddlebags and a trunk on the back. Oh did I forget to mention, he had Idaho license plates!!. I had struck up a conversation with this gentleman. He was friendly and happy as most who are in the middle of a nice road trip are. I found that he had indeed ridden the scooter clear from Idaho and was on his way to Washington. to visit family and start collage. He spoke of all the wonderful sites he had seen along the way. the nice people he had met. How the longer he had ridden the more alive and happy he had felt. We both talked about the adventure of a long downhill, a loaded scooter and the little drum brakes they had on them :-) , but you now the one thing he never mentioned was that he wished he had a bigger bike. Instead he focused on the what the bike had to offer rather then what it didnt have, and he was having a great time because of it. Now if more people looked at life that way how much better and friendlier would this world be... I wonder.

Today I got my message board up and running ( yeah!!) now if I can just get the link to it to appear on my blog you can get to it ;-). Hopefully the changes I have made to my sites template will load up soon if not then you will probably have no idea what I am talking about and might hink I am imagining things. If that turns out to be the case just remember this blog is titled Rambling and put it down as just me rambling on about something you cant see ;-) if it does post the changes hey go to my message board let me know. Talk to me people :-) If you have autism or know of someone with autism or have an autistic child just pop in and say hi. Well I do believe I have rambled on enough here. My son is at school and I am feelign the need for a little "me" time. So i'm off to do a little reading, play a few rounds of Half-life Team fortress and generally just sit and think. have a good day all. :-)

Hello there. If you have read this for awhile or read the archieves you know I have a Autistic son. He is a beautiful happy healthy 3 year old boy. I love my son. He means the world to me. Since he's been diagnosed as being autistic I have heard a lot of negative statements such as he will probably never show much affection and he wont be able to communicate with you, and we were even told he might not even walk well if at all. you see he was originally considered as severely autistic and in the beggining he didnt do any of those things and if the negative statements were believed he probably still wouldnt. Today my son is very active; runs ( well walks really quickly :-) ) plays, is quite affectionate and even though he still doesnt talk ( a few words) he still manages to get his point across. I still hear that he will never be normal. He was born with missing brain tissue, doesnt hear much at all, and theres something going on with his feet that he is wearing special shoes hoping it will correct itself as he grows; so no he will never be normal, but who is? I personally really hate the word "normal" when it 's applied to people. in my 35 years on this planet I have yet to see a "normal" person. I have seen many many people with similiar behavior traits that could collectively be called "average" but not one single "normal" person. So my son will never be average. My son ,in my opinion, is far beyond average; he is exceptional. I have seen many "average" children get frustrated quite quickly when trying to do something for the first time and scream and cry for mommy and daddy to do it for them; not my son. He tries and tries and he usually succeeds in accomplishing the task at hand. I have seen many "average" children and adults who come up with many reasons why they cant do something. My son who was born with much against him doesn't give up and just sit on the floor and wait for things to be done for him. You might be saying I am biased, well obviously he IS my son. A fact I am quite proud of. I have learned many things about life by watching and interacting with him. Seeing him ,who has many more things to overcome than I, keep trying to learn and accomplish things usually without complaint ( usually he IS only three), and I think about that whenever I try and do something and think about giving up saying its too hard or I can't do it. My son; he's had many challenges put in his life and still he goes about life living, learning, happy and active... average? I dont think so.

Hey all its me again :-) of course who else would it be it's MY blog :-) Well its going to be another hot one today it was 113 yesterday and it is suppose to be hotter today. You know what I dont get and I am sure many of you probably have experianced the same thing; people complaining about the weather. Now why do you suppose that is. Is it because (1) they don't remember the way it was the year before? (2) Mabey they live in a totally sealed enviroment ( a sealed habitat for example) which is supposed to have controlled weather, or (3) mabey they just like to complain. So for those people I say in order...take some vitamins it will improve your memory, get your equipment fixed so it will regulate correctly ,and, get a life and stop complaining we dont want to hear it :-) Personally I think it is a bit too warm for my personal taste lately and my son does not handle the heat well at all, but will me complaining help..no it won't. I just except the fact it is hot here in the summer and cold in the winter and thats just the way it is. Well talk to you all later. Hope your having a great day. :-)

So here we are again hmmm. Do any of you out there play any of the online fps ( first person shooter) style of games? I know I do and I LOVE the Half-life games and thier mods; particularly Team fortress. I like the team aspect of it and the different classes with thier own unique skills. I tend to prefer the engineer,demo or medic classes myself, cant snipe to save my life and the heavy machine gun class is just way to slow. pyro is ok as well as the soilder class but I have my three favorites and tend to play as them mainly. I saw a talk on T.V ( thats the other glowing box in the house for all you hardcore webaholics out there :-) ) wanting to know if computer games were getting to violent and if violence in the games can cause violence in real life. My personal opinion is unless your a bit unstable and are prone to that sort of violence in the first place then anything can probably set you off, but as for the rest of us I say a resounding NO!!!! I mean look at the old cartoons like the bugs bunny roadrunner shows. Now dont get me wrong I enjoyed watching them too so I'm not bashing them in any way but in them I have seen charectors shoot each other with shotguns but tht isnt considered too violent. and what about Tom and Jerry I was watching it with my young son yesterday and Tom clobbered Jerry over the head with a hammer. Now wht do you think would be easier for a child to get ahold of a phase induction plasma cannon or a Hammer? Yes I think children should be a little older before they are allowed to play some of the more graphic ganes out there and I personally think all games should come with settings to adjust the gore content to suit personal taste and the childrens age and emotional development but do violence in games cause violence in real life? NO!!!
Now having said that I feel much better and can get down off this soapbox and go play some games. have a good day everyone.

Hey all it's a beautiful day :-) the sun is shining and its not too hot, there is a slight breeze blowing and the pigeons are singing in the parking lot ( can you just hear the symphony?) ok well it may sound like I had taken some happy pills or something of the sort, but let me assure you that is not the case. I actually got almost a full nights slep last night and my son , while being quite busy today, has been full of smiles and laughter. I know I can look at him when he is like that and be depressed because he is Autistic, has siezures and a hearing problem, but I don't. I just see my son; a beautiful, big, healthy, happy, active boy. I also found a truck that has really caught my attention, and at $3000 it is a bit more then I can afford right now (ok a lot more), but perhaps God will see fit to provide a way for me to get it. It is a 1977 4x4 Jeep military ambulance built on a jeep j20 platform. Now I am sure many of you probably hear that and scrunch up your foreheads and ask, " why?". The reason would be I look at it and I see possibilities, trips, adventures, not to mention it just looks cool :-). I have known people who only drive new cars and once they get 80,000 or so on them they trade them in even if they are running great. Now I like new cars too. The new Subaru Baja coming out brings a smile to my face as does many others, but, if you have an older vehicle that you really like and fits your needs, desires and lifestyle then just keep it. It doesnt matter how new or expensive a vehicle is if it doesnt "feel" right or can't do what you enjoy doing then what good is it? I remember doing a little off pavement driving a while back and saw a young couple in an inexpensive but nice looking Susuki Samuri drooling at a new Jeep Grand cherokee in the parking lot. I also saw the owner of said Cherokee totally snub the when they walked over and said hi. Totally blew them off didnt respond, got in his Jeep and headed on down the trail. Well a little while later I saw that couple drive right past a spot where the Jeep was firmly stuck and getting pulled out by a 4x4 tow truck ( imagine that tow bill) so if you see someone who doesnt have something as nice or new as you do dont snub them say hi and give them a smile what they have may work well for them and you can never have too many friends out on the trail.

Hello world! Or at least the very few if any of you out there who read this :-) Hows the weather where your at? it s really nice here :-) A little Humid today but still prety nice. it is suppose to be in the tripple digits the rest of the week though. Any of you out there running swamp coolers? ( oh i'm sorry the proper name is evaporative coolers) thats what this appartment has and they seem to work fine up to about 90 degrees. After that it is hard to tell it is even running. Not too much that can be done about that but what I have found works well at least for a short period of time is putting a block of ice in the cooler. it cools the water going to the pads and cools the air flowing past and thus the air coming into the apartment, but, unless you have a big freezer you cant make too many blocks at a time and it is expensive to keep buying them so it is best used at the hottest time of the day to give an extra bit of relief... this public service message brought to you courtesy of me :-)

Goodmorning all :-) had a bit of a scare last night. My three year old son was running throught the house and stumbled and hit his head on the corner of the doorway. It immeadiatly swelled up and turned black and blue. The ambulance was called and they came and checked him out. they said he seemed ok but he could go to the hospital to be checked out just in case. So he was. They said he will be ok but to watch him for odd behavior or vomiting. fortunately none of those things occured and he seems to be doing much better. He still has a big knot on his head but the bruising has gone away. He truly has an angel watching over him :-) Knowing what it feels like when my son gets hurt I cant help but wonder how many sleepless night we have givin our parents over the years. When I think about all they went through with us and never stopped loving us it makes me love them even more ( if that were possible) and can only strive to be as good a parent as they were to me. I think we all need to give our parents a big hug and tell them how much we love and appreiate them for all they did for us.

Yes I know I know it has been awhile since I have updated this. Sorry been busy. My little boy haas been super active the last few days, the apartment has been completely rearanged and the police came to the apartments and busted one of the tenants for drug sales ( thank God for that. Dont need things like that going on around my son). Lately I have really been feeling the desire to get back into photography. I lost my camera awhile back and have really been missing it. I have found myself walking along and noticing groups of flowers or the way the sunlight reflects off the water of the nearby river and find myself wondering just what would be the best angle to shoot it from to get the nicest picture. You know I used to have a Cannon sure shot 35 mm and I never left the house without it on my person somewhere. Some have told me that it wasnt a "real" camera because it wasnt a SLR with a bunch of lenses to choose from, but I had gotten some great pictures out of that camera even to the point where professionals in the business have commented that the shots were really nice. As I did some checking into it I have found the the most important part of a good photo isnt the camera but the eye of the photographer wielding it. I am just wondering now, in regards to my next camera, 35mm or digital ( 2.1 megapixal minimum) any ideas?

Goodmorning !! You know what Windows needs... a BOLD key. We have keys for caps,insert,delete,paging up and down and many other things so why not a key for when you want to quickly write something in bold print? Mabey I shouldn't say anything... the way things work we'll end up with a multi-purpose key that requires a multi key press to get the BOLD print effect. I just want a little key that says BOLD on it. Now is this what I got on here and intended top write about?.....NO!. I just wanted to write my "goodmorning" in bold print. and headed off down this bunny trail. Do I remember what I was intending to write about ....ummmm no actually I don't, but, you can be sure that as soon as I do I will add another entry. If I dont remember it ever then it probably wasn't that important anyway. Untill next time america ( oh wait thats Maurys line) Bye :-)

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Well this is unusual I have a few minutes to add another entry here. Well my son enjoyed the park and we walked around and he played into the dirt. I personally think all kids regardless of who they are or where they come from love to play into the dirt :-) . Came home and was looking forward to watching Call For Help on Tech TV and it was a rerun (Bummer) same with The Screen Savers. Oh well they had the geek wedding on and it was enjoyable to watch. Oh well they should have the new ones on monday. Well I have to go. My son has the hotwheels out and wants to play and still having a little kid in me as well I feel some playtime coming on :-)

Hello there ; this is just my Blog a little place for an ordinary guy to have a little piece of the web. Isn't technology great!
Well a alittle about me. I am a man in my mid Thirties. The Father of a beautiful little three year old boy. He has come into this world with a few things against him. He has a hearing problem, siezure disorder and is Autistic. Some upon hearing that tell me they are sorry he is like that, but in all honestly i'm not. He is a beautifull, happy, healthy, loving child and I wouldnt change him for anything. He has been worked with alot and is doing worlds better then when he was a couple of years ago and he wil continue to be worked with and most importantly he will always know that he is loved. I only want him to be happy and become the best him he can be.
I'm not sure how often I will write here or what I will write about but, this is mainly for me anyway. If you read it and it interests you, I am glad and feel free to check back as often as you would like. I may change the look of this from time to time as I learn more about how it works. I love to tinker :-) , and have been told on more than one occasion ," why cant you just leave things alone", but I have to be me; besides who else is better at being me then me :-) Well i'm off now going to take my son to the park.