Friday, August 02, 2002

My son was sitting in my lap this morning sleepiness in his eyes watching Telletubbies and I was telling him that I love him which I do often because I feel all children accomplish more and are happier when they know they are loved by thier parents. I started to wonder how often is really often enough to tell the ones we loved how we feel. Is there a certian number of times...like say10 or so? can you say it too much? I dont know if there is a certian number of times it should be said. If there is some research that gives a actual number of times it should be said for best results. All I know is I tell my son often dispite his autism and hearing problems he smile each and everytime I say it and I know he knows he is loved :-)

Tuesday, July 30, 2002

I was just sitting here thinking about reading an article awhile back. It was about this man who one day decided he wanted to take a motorcycle trip around the world and the vehicle he chose to do it on was a Hnda 250 Elite scooter. He has since completed his trip and written a book about it. I will one day get the book and read it as soon as I can remember what the name of it was. I remember I first heard about it when I had had my 250 Elite scooter and I started thinking well why can't I do that. I figured I could at least start off with a trip across the country. I sat down and came up with plans on what to take, how to take it, and my Road atlas became my favorite reading item. I had it all planned out and did I take that trip? Well actually no I didnt. I kept coming up with excuses and reason as to why I had to wait. Then the day came when I sold my scooter, a dark day indeed. Why do I bring this up you ask? Because I got to thinking that had I taken that trip it would have made some major change in my life and I started looking back over my life and I came across a few decisions that had they been made differently would have drastically alterd my life the way it is today. I don't know if it would have been for the better or worse but it would have sent it off in a different direction than it took. Not that my life now is bad. I have a wonderfull son, my health is good, I can still dream the grand dreams, when I play with my son I can still remember what it was like being a child myself, I have wonderful parents and siblings who love me as much as I love them. I just have to wonder what if... It is those what ifs that drive us to try new things, to see what is just over the next hill, to dream and reach for the dreams. I had always planned on taking that trip someday but now I noticed that Honda has the new Silverwing scooter. 600cc fuek injected twin, disk brakes, more room for my knees ( a small complaint about my 250 Elite) slightly larger tires and better suspension travel (escuse me while I take a moment to ponder the possibilities) Now that old dream is stronger then ever. I think I might just have to find a way to afford one of those Silverwings. I havent ridden in quite a while and I feel the need for a road trip ( of course for me the word road tends to mean any surface that is drivable.) so next time you find yourself wondering a big "what if" you just might give some more serious thought to seeing where it takes you. Your life might never be the same. Have a good day everyone.