Love....now what is it? and just as important how can you tell if you have it? well many men and women who are much better with words than I have tried to explain it with varying degrees of success ; so I will not try to re-write, and re-word thier lines and call them my own, but instead try to tackle the other question. How do you know if you have it. Yes I hear you out there saying ," oh teach me great wise one. spread your wisdom across cyberspace and enlighted our lost souls " ;-). First off I am nowhere near being a cassanova; if I were I would probably have other activities taking up my time rather them sitting here at this keyboard typing. That being said it is easier to say what love isnt rather than what it is. Love is NOT pain, sadness or fear. I am sure some of you might have heard the saying love hurts, well if it does then it isnt love. Yes I know in even the best relationships there are ups and downs, but love is ...hmmm... if you view your life as a roller coaster then love, true love is the cloud floating serenly above it all not affected by the rise and fall of the ride. Love is forgiveness, love is acceptance, love is comfort in even the hardest times. I must restate something hear because it is of great importance to understand LOVE IS NOT!!!!!! PAIN. if someone hurts you and them tells you they love you then there is something wrong there. they do not have love for you especially if it happens repeatedly. If you are wondering if what you are feeling is love it would be good to ask yourself some questions and see if any of the answers you get are similiar to what I have written here. Please understand this is not the be all end all definative explanation of what love truly is. The only one who can truly answer that is God. He created love and there is none more pure then his, but for us mortals what is written hear is a good place to start. Hope your having a good day and we will talk again.

Who are you? now I know you are probably saying something like homemaker, geek, salesman, teacher etc. Now go back and re-read that question again. It says WHO are you not what do you do. we as a society tend to define Who we are by what we do. Is what you do really all you are ? or is it just a part of the vast array of experiances, skills and deeds that make up our personality? it has taken me a little bit of time to answer that question myself, but now when someone asks me who I am I can tell them. I am a child of God, an adventurer, explorer, proud father, member of a wonderful family, lover of women, and a dreamer. There are many more things I can add and will add to that as I look deeper into who I really am. It is a life long journey of discovery we are all on. you can just sit down and wait for the end of the ride or do a little site seeing along the way. Mabey its time you asked yourself who you are and really listen to the answer . Take care everyone.

ewll hello thre :-) it sure has been awhile hasn't it? well I was offline for a couple of months ( a disagreement with the local cable provider. Bottem line I was right, they were wrong but I still had to pay to get back on :-( well I am going to try and update this more oftem. I know I know I have said that before but this time I am going to make more of an effort to do it. some of the latest news is my little boy turned four in march Yeah! and he is exceding all the goals and expectations rhe "specialist" and docters have said he would Yeah!!!! again ;-) he is a strong happy loving healthy little boy and dispite the hearing problems and the autism he is leaning to communicate better all the time. Now I am having to play catch up to be able to keep up with him. Makes me proud :-) well I'm off / hope your all having a good day .

it sure has been a while since I posted something on here. been busy though. holidays, parenting, doing my best not to irritate those around me ;-) How was everyones Thanksgiving? we had a good one. the turkey was moist and the rest of the food was good too. it was a good meal. that evening I found myself in the emergancy room with a sick littel boy though. turns out he had the flu. thats the things about autism. when he is sick sometimes it is hard to tell because he doesnt talk and he doesnt act like he is sick. it is somewhat unerving I must say. He is doing better now. His mother had it too. and she is gettign better as well. now gues what? its my turn :-( oh well these things happen in life. does no good to mope and complain about them, now does it? but things are going along just fine and am looking forward to christmas :-) love Christmas. and it is even better with my son here ( of course that does mean I have to share now though ;-) ) but it is great because he gets the toys I used to like to get and I can still recapture a bit of my youth playing with them as well; after all he needs someone to play with all those cool toys with him ;-) well I have a bunch of things I have to do today while he is in school so I must keep this short. hope everyone is doing well and please try not to let the holidays stress you out. see ya

Hello all and hows was everyones halloween? I had a good one. my little boy was dressed up as Eyore from winine the pooh. we took him to a few safe houses and he had a great time. it didnt take him long to figure out if he held up his basket someone would put candy in it. The only real sad tihng about halloween is that you have to be so careful what houses you take your child to to trick or treat. I know it is only a small number of deranged individuals who enjoy harming children that have caused this but the bottem line is trick or treating is not the same as when most of us were younger.That was a time when you could get enough candy in one night to send a dentist's child through collage. I hope the day will come when our kids will be safer to go out and trick or trreat or play in the park or just be kids without some deranged cowerdly person trying to cuse them harm. Like I said before it is only a small number of people who do this but even that number is too many. People lets let children be children. life is complicated enough when they become adults no need to complicate thier childhood too. have a good day all.

and again I have waited quite awhile between post, but this time I actually have a reason. its not worth mentioning but it is a valid one. I have something I saw the other day that got me a nit upset. I was walking through town ( thats what those of us do when your car needs almost 2000 dollars in repairs ;-) ) and up ahead I saw this car stuck at the light. inside was a obviously upset and frustrated lady with her head on the stearing wheel. and as I got closer I saw many cars honk and then just drive around her. when I got to her car door I saw shw was nicley dressed in a business skirt, top and heels so there was no way she was goignt o move the car herself. she seemd suprizes I was goign to push her car out of the intersection for her. after getting it safely to the side of the road she proceeded to tell me that several men offered to push her for sexual favors in return. now this upsets me. have we as a society gotten so bad we expect huge returns for doing what should be dome to help someone in need? and where have all the gentlemen gone? are we so few and far between as to be pratically non-exitant? I have to believe there are more good people in the world then bad. I just think the bad are more visible and seem to cluster together in numbers where the think easy pickings are to be found ( of course so do buzzards) come one people help out your fellow man ( or women) if for no ther reason then someday you may need some help too. and guys cmon now. woudl being a gentleman even occasionally be too much to do ? it would take just a little effort on all of our parts to accept, and help each other to make the world a better place. ok havign said that I can put my soapbox away for another day and go read my new magazine that I havent had the time to do. have a good one :-)

hello all . well it has been a awhile since I posted here, and why is that? you might ask. well I could give you some long drawn out explanation siting the planetary alignments and such like that and come up with a bunch of excuses, but the truth of the matter is . I don't know. the great thing is I dont have to have a reason :-) it's my blog :-) not too much new going on in my life. My little boy is back in school so I get a little break during the day to do things. It is nice to see the weather is cooling off and soon the leaves will change colors and start to fall. Ah Fall one of the most beautifull times of the years. A great time for long walks and site seeing. You know usually I get on here and have something to say and today was no different but as I started thinking about the near perfect temperature for walking and the turning of the leaves my mind started drifting and I forgot what it was I was going to say :-) Ah but to be distracted with such pleasnt thoughts though. You know what? I think I will save that thought for another day and head out for a walk by the river. Hope your all having a great day :-)